Dear old me,
I wish I was just as carefree as you
I wish my smile was as big as it was before, when I didn’t care about my imperfect teeth and my laugh lines.
I wish I could just go out and put my hair in a low pony tail and wear no makeup because I didn’t care what people thought
I wish I could go up to people like you used to and talk to them like you’ve known them for years. I wish i possess that confidence that I sometimes struggle to find now.
I wish I could make mistakes and not be accountable for them because I’m too young to know better , but here I am making mistakes even though I know I should have done better.
I wish I could be like you. Because you never sat in front of a mirror for hours studying every little detail on your face and body…thinking that what makes you beautiful is what is on the outside.
To the old me, you were beautiful and you were very stressfree but to the new me you are still beautiful and even though your not carefree you are growing and eventually you won’t care about people’s stares no more, you’ll no longer care about how you style your hair or the type of clothes you wear, or those imperfect teeth and laugh lines because one day you’ll be reminded that beauty isn’t your exterior it’s your interior. To the old me. I love you but I have to let go so I can grow. To the new me…well take it easy and you’ll be just fine.
TheGirlInTheBlackScarf